e@cyclosporin: Days 35-41 -- Still a Roller Coaster Ride

Ensay's blood counts (for platelet, red, and white blood cells) are still at lower levels, however, for last two weeks his platelet counts have sustained itself for him to not get transfusions.  This was truly a time of giving PRAISES!  Please keep in mind that although this is a great news, the doctors must observe for few more months to come to any conclusions so I continue to PRAY for his body to stabilize and pump out those blood cells.  Ensay's been doing well in general and after school went into the summer break last week, he's been more relaxed as well.

Just before school ended, our school district have identified a home tutor for Ensay and so we're very grateful and excited to have this teacher's assistance in completing the school requirements very soon.  Talk about PRAISE (#2):  This tutor was Ensay's history teacher from last year so they already know each other well.  And when this teacher visited our home for the first time to provide initial instructions, he noticed this quilt on our living room wall and asked whether we attend a church because he himself is a Christ follower attending one of the evangelical church near by.  This was very special to us not just because he shares the same faith but because it also sets a strong common bond to collaborate in this effort.  By the way, this quilt was a precious present brought to us by a close family of ours who is currently serving as a missionary overseas a couple of months before Ensay's health issue surfaced.  These three words, "God is Faithful," hung in our living room spoke to us loudly with authority during the initial weeks into our family crisis, setting our spiritual bearing on His faithfulness away from our anxiety.

In fact, in this week's reading of 1 Kings 19:2-4 (NIV) -- So Jezebel sent a messenger to Elijah to say, "May the gods deal with me, be it ever so severely, if by this time tomorrow I do not make your life like that of one of them." Elijah was afraid and ran for his life. When he came to Beersheba in Judah, he left his servant there,  while he himself went a day's journey into the wilderness. He came to a broom bush, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. "I have had enough, Lord," he said. "Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors." -- affirmed us that no matter how much of a mighty power of God I may experience, when I shift my focus off His faithfulness to the voices of the circumstances I am facing, then I will fall prey to the fear and discouragements just like Elijah mentioned in this passage (who was a mighty prophet of God).

We certainly are grateful for Ensay's current condition but we still feel like we're in the roller coaster ride, going up and down, up and down.  Lately it's been the fatigue resulting from running hard last few months which has been draining us and at times felt like Elijah under the broom bush, simply overwhelmed with everything going on, and perhaps focusing too much of the voices of the circumstance we are in.  So  we continue to PRAY that we lock our focus on His faithfulness.

WOW Report -- Just today, one of the respected parent of our friends shared with me that she checks my blog every morning before praying for Ensay's healing.  What a humbly experience that was (not to mention that I should update my blog more frequently!) with gratitude.  Friends are still dropping off food according to the sign-up schedule and deeply touches all five of us.  Two instances, mothers in their last trimester brought food for us even when they themselves have difficulty moving about.  Thank you everyone.