e@cyclosporin: Day 3-5 -- Bumpy Start

I'm not sure how the last two days passed by.  As a result of many factors at play -- Change of environment from the hospital room to home, Starting on Cyclosporin pills, and After effects from ATG treatment -- Ensay had a couple of miserable days and sleepless nights.  He was nauseated with some stomach aches (most likely due to constipation), at times with some headaches.  He was wondering why he was not still at the hospital when he is feeling so bad.  We told him that on Monday he can ask that same question to his doctor and in the mean time we will have to hang in there.  On Monday, the doctor pointed out that these side effects are most likely caused by ATG being active in his body and told him to take Magnesium citrate to relieve his stomach and happy to report it worked explosively well.  Since then he's been feeling much better and after day's rest he resumed the Cyclosporin tonight.

I am also happy report that the doctors are seeing some positive signs from the preliminary test results from Monday.  Please know that your prayers are at work here @ Kimfamily.org!

During the nights when Ensay could not really sleep due to discomforts, Young Joo (mostly) and I were up with him trying to help in any way possible, feeling so helpless because there really wasn't much we could do besides laying our hands on him and praying for the pains to be lifted.  While this was not a pleasant situation it nevertheless reminded of the days when he was a newborn keeping us (again, mostly Young Joo) up and night. The only difference then and now was, his method of communication.  Back then, he just cried and cried in incomprehensible words, but this time he was communicating his pain through his facial expressions and comprehensible words even mixing in his full emotions by crying out, "Help me!" (which he spoke in Korean, "살려주세요!" is more like saying "Save me!") while reaching out to hold my hand....

In today's reading in Psalm 32:3,7 I found these passages:

When I kept silent,
my bones wasted away
through my groaning all day long.
You are my hiding place;
you will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.

Lord will hide Ensay in His special place protecting his bones from wasting away.  He will surround him with songs of deliverance.  In fact, we are going to have some family praise time starting tomorrow.